Taking a leap of faith

Taking a leap of faith is not in your nature; you're safe, always in control and complete with the life you have. I can remember the day you told me that you wanted to write him. I could only envision how many times you would sit and attempt the letter only to push it away because the words just wouldn't come. Then the day came when you told me that you had written it, but in your voice I could hear the words you held back, the details that you kept guarded just in case...just in case the letter came back or maybe just in case it wasn't meant to be. To my surprise you sent it, your words said that it didn't matter what happened but in your heart I knew you wanted to know something more than just your own memories about this man. Was he what you had clung to in your mind for so many years and did you get from him the personality that made you not quite belong? Then the day came when the phone rang...you called me and said you thought he had called and when I asked what he said you told me you didn't answer the phone! Your fear had gotten the best of you, your lack of words out weighed the words you would have said, so you began to bargain with yourself. If, just if, he called again, then, you would pick up the phone and say hello...to your surprise the phone rang again! That was just a little over a month ago and to see you this weekend you would have never known. After thirty years you have the missing piece, you have seen the man who is half of who you are. He is gentle and kind and from his stories it seems as if life happened and the roads he has taken have been well traveled, although no matter where he's gone you have always been there...that little girl in his wallet, a constant reminder a love that he would cherish forever. I love you mom and am so happy you have been given this gift. As we both know, God works in mysterious ways and his timing is always perfect. May you make the most of your time left and may your memories be many. I'm proud of you!!

To my new grandfather...I can not thank you enough for calling her, for caring and putting for that sparkle in her eyes. You will never know how much this means to us. I look forward to seeing you again and getting to know more of you and your family. Again, thank you!